A life without love…

There’s a phrase “A life without love, isn’t a life at all” and as silly as it may sound for a 24 year old to say, I firmly believe this right now. For someone who has been in love, and been completely infatuated with it, I can say that for me personally when your out of love and even as far away from the prospect of being in love as you can be…you get to the point where you can feel like you aren’t living. Not to sound too sad. Maybe a better way to put it, is not living life with 100%…does that make more sense?

I’m not saying I’m going to jump into any relationship just in the hope I find the thing we call love, I’m not that kind of person. If anything the truth is that I’m extremely reserved right now. It would be nice to open up to just one person again. To have one person that knows all your inner most thoughts. That’s not to say I’m closed off to everyone. To the people closest to me, they know a lot, maybe even some stuff that no one should know…but then if you looked deeper it could be seen as if palming them off with completely useless facts to throw them off the scent of what is really going on in my head or even life.

I’d like to think that I’m seen on the outside as a woman who is desired but can’t really be caught or tied down, like an unattainable woman of mystery. When in reality I am probably just seen as stuck up and rude or something else along them lines. The truth is I’m just waiting for something amazing to come along, or for the right one to work their way in…someone to take a chance on I guess (wow…sounding like a Disney princess right now). With all that said, I’m actually okay with not having that at the moment. The need for a relationship isn’t strong enough for me to just dive into the first thing I find. Not to mention realistically there’s other things I need to prioritise first.

This is just something I’ve been thinking about, and like I said not having someone to share your inner thoughts with sometimes sucks. I’ve even considered changing this blog into more of a diary when I don’t have much else to write about. After all what’s most important when writing a diary? Honesty. And that I can do.

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Losing Value

So I was thinking the other day about how the value of an item decreases immediately after you buy it. For example you buy a TV for £400, but by the time you get it home if you then sold it you wouldn’t be able to get the same amount for it due to it being classed as tainted or used…unless you returned it of course.

My thought is, what if we saw everything this way. For example once you asked someone to be your girlfriend or boyfriend, they lost their value. Now I have no doubt this does happen with some people and the way they see it. But how ridiculous would that be. In the end people would become worthless, everything would become worthless…to the point of no return. 

Just strange really…and a late night thought.

The Time I Made A Joke…

You know how sometimes when your daydreaming, you slip into a deep place right in the back of your mind. For example the time I was looking at the ants on the floor and It spiralled into a thought that maybe we are just like ants. And as I’m looking down on them now, there’s people/things looking down on us…a bit like a mirror in a mirror, creating a continuous image getting smaller and smaller. So basically I was thinking about a higher intelligence (like aliens) which I know is possible but it’s also completely random for a Tuesday afternoon…I guess that’s what work does to us.

Anyway, so this was one of those times…only this time I was thinking about balls. Guys balls to be exact or testicles if you will. So getting to the point. I was thinking to myself, if guys have two balls…why aren’t they in individual bags? To which my brain then replied…’maybe they didn’t offer them two at the checkout’.

Yeaaahhhh I know, It’s bad. Shockingly bad. But I love them kind of jokes, dad jokes I call them. The wit I got from my dad of course didn’t help my cause. But you know I’ve come out a great person with a quick wit…even if like I say it is bad. So yeah that’s the joke I made. Copyright Natalie Oram. ✌🏼️

If you would like to share my joke to any of your male friends or family I have set up a scenario and wording for the joke below.

Scenario: Lazing around on anyway of the week with said male friend/family.

Hey Ted…If guys have two balls…why is there only one bag?..Did they not offer you two at the checkout? Ba dum bum chush.

Happy Tuesday! 🙈

Google was right!!!

So I was sat on my phone…like every Sunday evening, when a thought crossed my mind. When we get ill and have symptoms, what’s the usual thing to do nowadays? Google them. And what does it normally say? You guessed it! Your dying 😱

But on reflection…it is true. I mean it will happen in the long run. Sure some of us die earlier than others but eventually it does happen wether the symptoms impact it or not :/ scary but true. But that’s not to say we should stop living our lives just because of this obvious realisation we ignore. Anyway Sunday insight over.

A reason why I love films…

One thing that becomes more and more clearer over the many years of watching films, is that films can unmask you. I’m not talking about the world knowing the truth about my life as batman… I’m talking more about emotions.

In my life so far I’d like to think I’ve covered majority, if not all of the girly RomComs out there. And let’s face it a RomCom doesn’t seem complete with a tear jerking moment in it, that reduces you to a blubbering mess in a matter of seconds. And that’s exactly the moment I’m talking about.

In a way because I love films so much I’d like to think there’s a lot of psychology behind the whole process, from the film you choose, to the ‘moment of impact’. Your emotions can make you do things subconsciously before you even realise what’s happening. So normally if i choose a lovey dovey film it’s either because I want to have the faith ‘the one’ is out there and is coming for me…or it’s because I’m having mental problems with people in my life…and by mental problems I normally mean me overthinking all of the wrong things.

But in a way that’s the beauty of these films. It can take your mind off the rest of the world, but at the same time also make you realise one of two things…either your a complete mess right now and you need to get your shit together. Or it can make everything seem so much clearer. Like you’ve just run into a brick wall with all the answers on.

Either way I have to admit I do enjoy both sides of it, sometimes everyone needs a little four hour cry to wake themselves up to push in the right direction…don’t they?

Life or a dream?

Do you ever take a moment in the day and wonder…am I dreaming?

Maybe it’s due to dreaming about a real life situation the previous night. Or maybe its due to walking through life, like a mindless zombie…Not living life the way we should…With adventure and excitement.

We all have hopes and dreams of what we want for ourselves. What we want from life. As I’ve said before…this has never really been clear for me. I have options in mind, but no definite answer. All I know at the minute is that I don’t want to be here. I want to get out into the world and explore the land we’ve been given. There’s so much to see and do, and while I’m stuck here…well basically…I’m just stuck.

Alternatively it may be because sometimes I can control my dreams…Or maybe it’s because sometimes I have little control over my day…

Whatever the reason, it’s time to stop dreaming and start living. Live the adventure!…Just a thought.

Learn from yesterday, live for today, hope for tomorrow. The important thing is not to stop questioning. – Albert Einstein.

What women want…

The simplest way to answer this is…truth be told most of us really don’t know. Or if we do…then we’ve probably over thought it and therefore now want too much.

A woman’s mind is always changing…mainly because we think way too much into things, and then by doing so we create other options to answer the question…even if we’ve already chosen something else. One day we will want one thing and the next day it will change. To be honest there is no real logic.

Now I know there’s already way too many jokes about this topic, and that it’s already been overly talked about including the repeated Gif of Ryan Gosling from the film ‘The Notebook’ (What do you want? God damn it, what do you want!). Fair enough that was originally about love, but girls do put way too much thought in the most simplest things…even where to go for lunch! It seems even worse when two girls get together. The simple question of lunch leads to a game of verbal tennis, where the term “I don’t know, you pick” gets thrown back and forth continuously until they reach the conclusion of the option given right at the start.

I’d like to say there’s an easy solution for all of this…but there isn’t. I could even attempt to make you believe that one day this wont be an issue anymore, as if it’s proven by scientific research that girls will evolve to enable them to stop doing this. But again sadly this isn’t something that will happen, you just have to learn to live with it. Either way though there are no winners. From a girl’s point of view you realise how annoying it can be, and can attempt to control in some way but never completely. Then from a guy’s point of view… there’s sadly nothing you can do but make sure the girl who’s having to make decisions around you is one you love very dearly, and therefore you can put up with the frustrations surrounding them. Otherwise for the guy there may be a long road of sadness and annoyance to come.

I think the only real piece of advice you can take from this blog is to never try to understand the way a woman’s mind for decision-making works! Your life is a lot easier and happier when you don’t concern yourself with the confusion, and like I said frustration that comes with all of this!

“You can’t get stuck on what should have happened. That doesn’t help you.” – Mitch Albom, Tuesdays with Morrie.