A life without love…

There’s a phrase “A life without love, isn’t a life at all” and as silly as it may sound for a 24 year old to say, I firmly believe this right now. For someone who has been in love, and been completely infatuated with it, I can say that for me personally when your out of love and even as far away from the prospect of being in love as you can be…you get to the point where you can feel like you aren’t living. Not to sound too sad. Maybe a better way to put it, is not living life with 100%…does that make more sense?

I’m not saying I’m going to jump into any relationship just in the hope I find the thing we call love, I’m not that kind of person. If anything the truth is that I’m extremely reserved right now. It would be nice to open up to just one person again. To have one person that knows all your inner most thoughts. That’s not to say I’m closed off to everyone. To the people closest to me, they know a lot, maybe even some stuff that no one should know…but then if you looked deeper it could be seen as if palming them off with completely useless facts to throw them off the scent of what is really going on in my head or even life.

I’d like to think that I’m seen on the outside as a woman who is desired but can’t really be caught or tied down, like an unattainable woman of mystery. When in reality I am probably just seen as stuck up and rude or something else along them lines. The truth is I’m just waiting for something amazing to come along, or for the right one to work their way in…someone to take a chance on I guess (wow…sounding like a Disney princess right now). With all that said, I’m actually okay with not having that at the moment. The need for a relationship isn’t strong enough for me to just dive into the first thing I find. Not to mention realistically there’s other things I need to prioritise first.

This is just something I’ve been thinking about, and like I said not having someone to share your inner thoughts with sometimes sucks. I’ve even considered changing this blog into more of a diary when I don’t have much else to write about. After all what’s most important when writing a diary? Honesty. And that I can do.

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Where are your eggs?

Easter is the only time of the year, when it is perfectly safe to

put all of your eggs in one basket!

The origin of this quote of course comes from the saying “Don’t put all your eggs in one basket.” Meaning that we shouldn’t focus all out energy or money or even our future onto one thing.

Which in my opinion is true…you never know what the future will bring, things might not pan out the way you hoped. But saying that you don’t want to live your life never taking risks, as it might be that one time you do risk everything that your dreams actually come true.

It’s a hard life, for some more that others. But I think the main thing to remember is that life is all about taking risks, we make mistakes and then we learn from them…just maybe have a back up plan just in case?

Eczema VS Sun-beds

So I’ve suffered from eczema since I was born. As I got older it seemed to of got more and more controllable, to the point where it was just seasonal and only really became visible in winter due to the sudden change of climate. However this year it doesn’t seem to be going away, and nothing seems to be helping clear it up.

Winter has come and gone and by March my skin would usually of gone back to its normal self. But for some reason this year it just won’t budge. I feel like I’ve tried everything. Different moistursers, steroid creams, bath ointments, and many more treatments. So like with any question I can’t answer, I took to the internet. There was suggestion, after suggestion but the one that caught my eye was to try using a sun-bed.

Now I know the risks of using a sun-bed…but due to my eczema mainly being due to the climate, and me feeling like I’m out of options I thought I should give it a go. So far I’ve only had 4 sessions, each of 6 minutes. But I honestly think it is beginning to help. My skin feels better and definitely looks better with the red patches disappearing, giving me a bit more self-confidence (because let’s be honest having people stare at you, and wonder why you look like a human leopard isn’t exactly a confidence booster). I mean I’m in no way getting a ‘great’ tan from this as I still look quite pale, but as long as my eczema is getting better I don’t mind.

Just as a side note this isn’t a long-term treatment at all and as soon as I feel happy that majority of it has cleared up, I will stop using the sun-beds. Anyway I’ll keep you updated, feel free to give me any feedback or even any suggestions if you or anyone you know struggles with eczema and what they use to clear it up.

 “People will stare . Make it worth their while” – Harry Winston.