A life without love…

There’s a phrase “A life without love, isn’t a life at all” and as silly as it may sound for a 24 year old to say, I firmly believe this right now. For someone who has been in love, and been completely infatuated with it, I can say that for me personally when your out of love and even as far away from the prospect of being in love as you can be…you get to the point where you can feel like you aren’t living. Not to sound too sad. Maybe a better way to put it, is not living life with 100%…does that make more sense?

I’m not saying I’m going to jump into any relationship just in the hope I find the thing we call love, I’m not that kind of person. If anything the truth is that I’m extremely reserved right now. It would be nice to open up to just one person again. To have one person that knows all your inner most thoughts. That’s not to say I’m closed off to everyone. To the people closest to me, they know a lot, maybe even some stuff that no one should know…but then if you looked deeper it could be seen as if palming them off with completely useless facts to throw them off the scent of what is really going on in my head or even life.

I’d like to think that I’m seen on the outside as a woman who is desired but can’t really be caught or tied down, like an unattainable woman of mystery. When in reality I am probably just seen as stuck up and rude or something else along them lines. The truth is I’m just waiting for something amazing to come along, or for the right one to work their way in…someone to take a chance on I guess (wow…sounding like a Disney princess right now). With all that said, I’m actually okay with not having that at the moment. The need for a relationship isn’t strong enough for me to just dive into the first thing I find. Not to mention realistically there’s other things I need to prioritise first.

This is just something I’ve been thinking about, and like I said not having someone to share your inner thoughts with sometimes sucks. I’ve even considered changing this blog into more of a diary when I don’t have much else to write about. After all what’s most important when writing a diary? Honesty. And that I can do.

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Ever changing seasons…

I love the ever changing seasons. Spring. Summer. Autumn. Winter. Every single one of them. Each unique in their own beautiful way. But when I think about it, there’s always one problem. When it’s Spring, I want it to be Summer. When it’s Summer, I want it to be Autumn. When it’s Autumn, I want it to be winter and so on and so forth. It’s a vicious circle. And it’s only when I realise this, that I begin to see I’m mindlessly wishing the seasons to come around faster and faster each year. Effectively wishing a lifetime away…rather than embracing the beauty of each season. In some ways though, that is really a trait that all humans share. The need for change, and the ache of never really being fully satisfied.

“Don’t waste the season of life your in now, just because you want the next one to come.”

Where are your eggs?

Easter is the only time of the year, when it is perfectly safe to

put all of your eggs in one basket!

The origin of this quote of course comes from the saying “Don’t put all your eggs in one basket.” Meaning that we shouldn’t focus all out energy or money or even our future onto one thing.

Which in my opinion is true…you never know what the future will bring, things might not pan out the way you hoped. But saying that you don’t want to live your life never taking risks, as it might be that one time you do risk everything that your dreams actually come true.

It’s a hard life, for some more that others. But I think the main thing to remember is that life is all about taking risks, we make mistakes and then we learn from them…just maybe have a back up plan just in case?

Live life to the fullest!

Dream as if you’ll live forever. Live as if you’ll die tomorrow.

– James Dean.

This is one of the very first quotes I fell in love with. It’s something I personally constantly need to improve on. I waste so much time just doing things that pass the time and mean nothing to me, or give me any personal pleasure. I want to live, and experience and just enjoy life. I tend to put things off, saying I’ll do it tomorrow, or I’ll start tomorrow. I need to get into the habit of living for now. Why wait? Live as if you’ll die tomorrow, no need to regret then…

Get your own life first…

Something new I’m bringing to my blog is that on Sunday’s is I’m going to post a quote. Sometimes I’ll comment on the quote…other times I’ll just post a quote for people to ponder over. So to kick start this, and because it’s valentine’s Day…This quote is about relationships.

If you are not happy being single, you will never be happy in a relationship. Get your own life first, then share it.

I’ve spoken about this before, but it still is and always will be true. Too many people get into relationships just so they aren’t alone, and fair enough sometimes it can help. But a lot of the time that person just becomes too invested in the another person. So much so, that they lose themselves and become a shadow of what they used to be or even what they could be. They lose their potential a bit, the potential to be brilliant. In life we need time to ourselves, to explore and discover…so get your own life, then share it.

Make your own path

There’s a quote I come across a lot when looking at traveling, it goes…

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail – Ralph Waldorf Emerson 

I find this quote really inspiring both for travelling and home life. For travelling I like the idea of going where no one else has gone before me. Like a astronaut exploring space. In my eyes why should we do the same thing day in day out, when we have the whole world at our feet to explore and just live. I think that’s one of the reasons why I fell in love with Iceland so easily, it gave me a sense of freedom to discover something new and I love that.

On the other hand though like I said I can also apply it to home life. Like I’ve mentioned before I’ve never really been career minded, but maybe that’s just because I haven’t seen the right career choice. Maybe if I created my own career (i.e make my own path) then I’d be career driven. It’s just finding something I really love doing, something that I’m unbelievably passionate about. Anyway I’ll keep wandering the earth, trying to find out how to create my own path. One day.

Happy Being Alone

In the beginning in most cases we’re never alone. As babies, as toddlers, as children we aren’t alone. But then as soon as you become older, your left alone in the big bad world. Which is fine and nice but then after a while you begin to think about it. Are you happy being alone with your own company?

For some people this is quite easy, free at last in a sense. But for others it can prove to be hard. A few of my friends have gone from relationship to relationship and it makes me think, is it just because you don’t want to be alone? I mean I’ve been single for a while now, so yeah I can see the appeal of wanting to be with someone because your bored or yourself and want something different again. But then I can also see the other side of it.

For me when I first ‘fell in love’ that was everything. It’s was new, exciting…but to be completely honest I lost myself. I got so into the relationship that I didn’t know what it was like to just be me anymore. That was the hardest thing. Now I’m not saying I’m completely anti-relationship now because of it, but it makes you a bit more wiser I guess.

So overall I think what I’m trying to say is you need to be happy alone, so that you don’t lose yourself. I know everyone’s different mentally but for me that was something that happened, and it is hard to come back from it. But it’s a lesson to learn!

The best way to be happy with someone, is to be happy alone. That way the company will be a matter of choice…not a necessity.