Interrail 2018

For as long as I can remember I’ve wanted to go travelling. But I think the first time I heard the word ‘interrailing’ was in my first year of university…however with my mind on other things, I never took the time to really look into it and do my research and eventually put it that word to the back of my mind.

Anyway as soon as uni was over I started to look into travelling again as a whole. Europe was always the main goal to begin with. Italy, France, Germany, Prague, the wonder and beauty of the places…right on my door step. The way I’ve always looked at it is that with living in Europe myself, I might as well seize the opportunity and explore the wonders that have been given right in front of me. When I first imagined going travelling in Europe I imagined and planned on doing it as a road trip with someone I was close to…but like I’ve said in a previous blog our dreams have to adapt to survive. 

So when I came out of my last relationship I once again looked into going travelling, but this time on my own. I pretty much already had a route laid out due to looking at it in the past, but this time I decided to look at alternative ways to get around in Europe, which is where interrailing came into it. I initially looked on the Official Interrail website to get an idea of the prices I would be looking at paying and the different ticket types there were. At the time the ‘Youth ticket’ was aged 18-25, and with me already being 24 I made the decision to go just before my 25th birthday (this July), just so I could get it cheaper. So It was decided I would be leaving in June ….(of course after I’d decided this, they changed the youth ticket age up to 27…but what can you do).

So the next thing on the list was to see if anyone I knew wanted to come with me…however the problem with being 24 and single is that most of your friends are in relationships and already saving for their own house or just for their future in general. Which you know is understandable, however I wasn’t going to let the fact that I’d be going on my own put me off the idea. At the end of the day this is the only thing I’m certain I want to do with my life right now, and if I have to do it alone…then that’s the way it will be. There’s a quote somewhere that says something like “in life you can only rely on yourself” and it’s true…so why not take the plunge…even if it does leave people talking. A woman going travelling alone 😮 how will you do that? Aren’t you worried? What if this happens or that happens? Well Barbra things happen everyday, the only difference is that the sun will be on my face when it happens and I’ll have actually been living my life. Shocking I know! The audacity!

Anyway I won’t go on too much in this blog, I’m sure there will be many more to follow, including a packing list and hostels I’ll be staying in, how I’m actually feeling about it all etc. So stay tuned!

“Don’t rely on someone else for your happiness and self-worth. Only you can be responsible for it. You have to invest in yourself, or no one else will.” – Stacey Charter

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A life without love…

There’s a phrase “A life without love, isn’t a life at all” and as silly as it may sound for a 24 year old to say, I firmly believe this right now. For someone who has been in love, and been completely infatuated with it, I can say that for me personally when your out of love and even as far away from the prospect of being in love as you can be…you get to the point where you can feel like you aren’t living. Not to sound too sad. Maybe a better way to put it, is not living life with 100%…does that make more sense?

I’m not saying I’m going to jump into any relationship just in the hope I find the thing we call love, I’m not that kind of person. If anything the truth is that I’m extremely reserved right now. It would be nice to open up to just one person again. To have one person that knows all your inner most thoughts. That’s not to say I’m closed off to everyone. To the people closest to me, they know a lot, maybe even some stuff that no one should know…but then if you looked deeper it could be seen as if palming them off with completely useless facts to throw them off the scent of what is really going on in my head or even life.

I’d like to think that I’m seen on the outside as a woman who is desired but can’t really be caught or tied down, like an unattainable woman of mystery. When in reality I am probably just seen as stuck up and rude or something else along them lines. The truth is I’m just waiting for something amazing to come along, or for the right one to work their way in…someone to take a chance on I guess (wow…sounding like a Disney princess right now). With all that said, I’m actually okay with not having that at the moment. The need for a relationship isn’t strong enough for me to just dive into the first thing I find. Not to mention realistically there’s other things I need to prioritise first.

This is just something I’ve been thinking about, and like I said not having someone to share your inner thoughts with sometimes sucks. I’ve even considered changing this blog into more of a diary when I don’t have much else to write about. After all what’s most important when writing a diary? Honesty. And that I can do.

Ever changing seasons…

I love the ever changing seasons. Spring. Summer. Autumn. Winter. Every single one of them. Each unique in their own beautiful way. But when I think about it, there’s always one problem. When it’s Spring, I want it to be Summer. When it’s Summer, I want it to be Autumn. When it’s Autumn, I want it to be winter and so on and so forth. It’s a vicious circle. And it’s only when I realise this, that I begin to see I’m mindlessly wishing the seasons to come around faster and faster each year. Effectively wishing a lifetime away…rather than embracing the beauty of each season. In some ways though, that is really a trait that all humans share. The need for change, and the ache of never really being fully satisfied.

“Don’t waste the season of life your in now, just because you want the next one to come.”

Deception

Life is hard sometimes. The other day I was daydreaming, finding a way to escape reality for a while, when I spotted a tiny spider working on a web. It was carefully creating this perfect and fragile little spider web, putting so much love and dedication into a home for one. I was so captivated by its beauty and patience. In that moment it was just me and that little spider in the world. The spider devising a place to call home, and me the onlooker to this beautiful creation.

Just as I was considering this and taking it all in…a figure behind me took notice of us sharing this moment and with one swift movement ripped the spider’s little web in half. I was devastated. How heartless. The lesson to learn here is that there’s monsters everywhere…even disguised as friends.

Credit to Georgina for being the figure that broke a happy home.

Netflix, you’ve done it again! 

So over the past week or so the internets been going a bit crazy over a new tv show called ’13 Reasons Why’ which has been aired on Netflix. For anyone who doesn’t know or hasn’t got around to watching it yet, the show is about a girl in high school who commits suicide. However before having done this she has recorded tapes listing 13 reasons/people that lead her to do this. I’d also like to add that this is adapted from a book. I haven’t read it but after watching this I probably will to see what had been changed or for need of a better word, adapted.

Without giving away spoilers or it being too heavy…I’d honestly say to watch it. No matter what your age, gender or background…watch it. There’s lessons to be learnt by everyone in it. Wether it’s just to be a bit kinder, consider what you say or do before you do it, or even if you just ignore rumours and think for yourself…we can all take something from this.

The show covers a lot of important issues for example bullying, loneliness, rape and of course suicide. All of which are dealt with by the director and actors appropriately. 

I just personally couldn’t rate this any higher. I’ve mentioned before in blogs about how I believe judging people is bad and how you can never know completely what is going on inside a persons mind, and I think this is just such a true representation of this…which I think everyone should at least attempt to open their mind to. 

So wether you decided to binge watch it all in one day, or spread it out over a few days. Give it a chance. Who knows, it might even change the way you see the world…at least in some areas.

Things Customers Do…

So I’m sure a lot of us, for at least even part of our lives has worked in customer service. And let’s be honest even though we may like our jobs…there are times when customers can be annoying as shizzle. So I decided to write a ‘short’ list of things customers do that really…make our day. Enjoy! (Just a side note these are thing’s that mainly happen in the catering side of customer service.)

1.  Customers explaining how to do something…we pretty much do everyday. Look I may look young, but surprisingly I know how to do my job so unless I really look like I’m struggling (in which case I’d ask a colleague and not customer) just keep notes or suggestions to yourself.

2. Customers walking past things and then waiting for us to get them for them. I mean let’s be honest you know, and I know you clocked the knives and forks before you went and sat down. So do us both a favour and maybe pick them up? Especially if we’re already running round like headless chickens.

3. People asking for ‘instant’ coffee. If you come into a cafe where we have a hella expensive coffee machine, and attempt to practice latte art…please just don’t ask for instant. If you really want instant coffee you can pick up a bag from a supermarket, for a cheaper price then what we would charge anyway. I mean to me it just doesn’t make sense.

4. People leaving a mess and not even attempting to clean up a bit. Maybe this is a bit tedious but if I went out with my children (not that I have any) and I ordered a cheese sandwich for my child to which they then decided to make it look like the cheese sandwich  turned into a volcano and erupted everywhere…I’d at least have the decency to try to clear it up a bit…or maybe even just say I’m really sorry my kid’s made quite a bit of mess under that table to one of the staff members. You know just out of respect.

5. Complaining to staff about pricing. Ughhhhhhhhhhh. Yes I know it’s expensive, yes I know back in the day you could get the same thing for about a third of the price, and yes you could go elsewhere and get it cheaper. But to be completely honest surprisingly I have literally NO CONTROL over the pricing. I am not the boss, heck I’m not even the manager. So please do not complain to me. If your that unhappy please create a time machine and travel backwards to when things weren’t so expensive, and while your there please get me an alcoholic beverage for £1. Thank you.

6. Snatching the drink so it spills right at the last second. Look I like making coffee, heck sometimes I’ll even do that little bit extra to make a cute ass leaf on top. Then I will carefully carry my pride and joy over to your table without spilling one little bit. So please do not then snatch the drink out of my hand, causing it to spill and turn my leaf into a mess. I don’t particularly appreciate it.

7. Letting your child scream bloody murder while you continue to chat to your friend at the top of your voice. Look I know mothering can be hard, and I know you’ve probably been up on your feet since 5am or maybe even majority of the night. But please, please, please, please, try to calm your child down. We have customers who complain to us, we can’t focus fully on work we’re trying to do and to be honest I don’t particularly think your kid’s having the time of its life either. I mean heck even if you asked a member of staff to attempt to help, I’m sure we’d try our best.

Now I know it sounds like I have a lot of negatives about working in this job but on the other hand you know we have nice regulars, coffee on tap, cake on discount and maybe even a cheeky bit of eye candy occasionally…so I guess it’s not all bad!

Wrapping Up 2016

So another year has come and gone and I was thinking about all the things that have been new to me in 2016.

Firstly this year has been the first time I’ve left the country four times…which I’m hoping to do again if not better next year. But its honestly been great! In the last few years my anxiety’s got the better of me while flying but I’m hoping the more I do of it, the better I’ll get.

Next up…sort of cheating because it which links to the first one but… I went to Amsterdam twice. It was somewhere I wanted to tick off my travelling list and it just so happened that the opportunity arose to go twice. I went with the first time with one of closest friends and the second time with a group of friends. Both very different experiences, but both equally amazing. I think I’d definitely go back.

This one isn’t a good thing really but 2016 was the first time I got food poisoning…and the best bit about it? I gave it to myself. Yup that’s right. I am a cooking genius apparently! Basically I’ve learnt that I should be very carefully with rice and salmon. Lets hope that was a first and last.

Back to a positive now, I rejoined a gym. This was and is a difficult one for me as I hate working out. The last time I went to the gym was during University and that lasted all of about a month. And when I say a month what I really mean is I had a membership for a month, and I actually stepped foot in the gym around about three times. This time round I’m actually going! I’m also starting to see some improvements…at least I was before the christmas holidays. Back to it tomorrow, let the pain commence!

Speaking of pain, onto tattoos. In July for my birthday I decided to treat myself (that’s right I bought myself presents) by having two tattoos done in one sitting. To be honest I was quite proud of myself. I had one done on my ankle and one on my ribs, and I thought they’d hurt more than they did. These weren’t my first tattoos, but everyone I’d spoken to said that the ribs was one of the worst places you could get a tattoo due to the pain. Psshhh whimps I say! Heck I might even do that from now one, rather than just having one done at a time.

Returning to the travelling side of the year, I also visited a few more places in England I hadn’t seen before. Last year I decided that I would try to see more of England because I thought it was stupid that there were all of these great cities within driving distance, that I’d never even been to. So I went to Liverpool and Manchester. I only stayed at each for one night but there’s still loads to see. I might even have to return this year.

Onto spending dollars. I’m sad to say that this year I started a very unhealthy addiction… which is spending money on shoes. I don’t know how it happened as I’ve never been madly interested in footwear, but I know it wasn’t my fault. On the one hand I’m learning more about footwear brands, which is good because I’m like a grandma when it comes to what’s in fashion. But on the other hand my bank account hates me for it…I can only hope it was a phase.

Onto the last one…because let’s be honest I’m rambling now. 2016 was my year of being completely single without dating. Now this wasn’t really planned, I just wasn’t that interested or put in any effort. I don’t regret it though. A whole year without hassle or drama. A whole year to only think about myself. Don’t get me wrong, sure having someone is nice. But this year to myself was great!

Anyway roll on 2017! 365 new days, 365 new chances!