Adult changes

Now I wouldn’t really class myself as a adult…not that I’d class myself as a child either, but I just don’t think I’m responsible enough to be considered as an adult. However saying that since the start of 2017 I have noticed some changes in my behaviour. Mainly in the way I’m choosing to spend my money…

Full disclosure, I live with my parents, I’m still single and I have no children or dependants…other then my cat. But because of this I think part of me is going into some sort of safe mode, in an attempt to prepare for any kind of future I can hope to have. And because my mind is doing this, it means I currently desire to buy as much homeware as I can. You know for my future home which doesn’t current exist…nor do I have the funds to accumulate.

You might be thinking okay yeah but for a girl that’s normal, like who doesn’t like to buy nice smelling candles and fluffy throws and maybe the occasional decorative ornament. But oh no I’m talking about coffee tables, storage systems, vintage lights, heck maybe even a sofa bed. I just can’t control it right now. I see something and I think oh that might be nice in like a living room or a bedroom. Basically I’m being impulsive. It could be worse I guess, I could be just throwing money away…oh well at least I’ll be prepared if I do ever move out.

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Make your own path

There’s a quote I come across a lot when looking at traveling, it goes…

Do not go where the path may lead, go instead where there is no path and leave a trail – Ralph Waldorf Emerson 

I find this quote really inspiring both for travelling and home life. For travelling I like the idea of going where no one else has gone before me. Like a astronaut exploring space. In my eyes why should we do the same thing day in day out, when we have the whole world at our feet to explore and just live. I think that’s one of the reasons why I fell in love with Iceland so easily, it gave me a sense of freedom to discover something new and I love that.

On the other hand though like I said I can also apply it to home life. Like I’ve mentioned before I’ve never really been career minded, but maybe that’s just because I haven’t seen the right career choice. Maybe if I created my own career (i.e make my own path) then I’d be career driven. It’s just finding something I really love doing, something that I’m unbelievably passionate about. Anyway I’ll keep wandering the earth, trying to find out how to create my own path. One day.

My Letter…

Dear Someone,

Having to write a random letter reminds me of the time I had to write letters to my ‘friends’ on animal crossing…even though I knew they didn’t understand english normally. Being set to write a letter with no topic is pretty hard. I never really know what to say. I could update you on how life is going in Natalie World…but to be honest there’s not a lot going on. I’m still single which isn’t really a bad thing, as right now I’m not sure I’m really capable of giving someone else emotional attention (this leads me into thinking I may be becoming a heartless bitch). I still have a cafe job…which isn’t really where I thought I’d be at twenty-two. It’s comfortable and nice, but it’s not really mind-blowing. I still live at home, which again is nice because I like seeing them everyday but at the same time I miss living alone at times. My money situation sucks, I have things to save for, things to pay off, holidays I want to go on, a new car I’d like but nowhere near enough money for any of them. Trying to find another job sucks! Most places won’t take me due to no experience in the area, and I always feel like any jobs that do actually want me are a step in the wrong direction to where I want to be. And on the social side of things most nights I’d rather be in bed watching tv, than going out and getting drunk with friends…like a lot of people my age. I’m just stuck I guess, and maybe set in my ways a bit in other areas. Not very interesting really…anyway until next time friend?

xx

My Zodiac Sign

I was born on the 16th of July, so my star sign is Cancer. One of the definitions for the cancer zodiac sign is…

Cancerians love home-life, family and domestic settings. They are traditionalists, and enjoy operating on a fundamental level. They love history, and are fascinated with the beginnings of things (heraldry, ancestry, etc.). The moon is their ruler, so they can be a bit of a contradiction and sometimes moody. However, they are conservative, so they’ll be apt to hide their moods from others altogether. They have a reputation for being fickle, but they’ll tell you that isn’t true, and it’s not. Cancerians make loyal, sympathetic friends. However Cancerians need alone time, and when they retreat, let them do so on their terms.

This was taken from the site: http://www.whats-your-sign.com/zodiac-signs-and-meanings.html.

I can actually see myself in this description quite a bit. I love being at home, and spending time with my family and offering support where I can…nowhere is like home. I am also interested in history to a degree, and would love to try to create a family tree at some point in my life…however I expect there will be some family secrets that will be uncovered deep down. On the lines of the whole hiding moods thing, I do this at times…sometimes without even realising. It’s just a coping mechanism overall. I’m not sure about the whole loyal and sympathetic part. I do try but whether I actually come across like this is a different thing, we can try to do something nice but than be portrayed in a different way. Then in regards to the final thing mentioned… I do like alone time, more so now then ever before…and sometimes if I don’t get it, it can start to feel a bit suffocating. Strange how a generalisation can be quite relevant at times I guess…

 

What I miss…

Like most university students I moved away from home. This was after I stayed at home and travelled for the first year, and then decided it wasn’t for me. But for the two years that I lived in Sheffield, I honestly loved it. I loved having my own space, with my own freedom to do whatever I wanted no matter what time it was. I mean don’t get me wrong, I did miss seeing my family everyday…but I had so much more independence. I can even say I enjoyed being able to do my own washing…how weird is that?

I even fell in love with Sheffield itself. It had so much to offer than my hometown. Better jobs, better atmosphere, better theatres, everything. In a way because I’ve returned home now, I yearn for this freedom I had never experienced before going to university. I’d love to move out again no matter where I moved to…but it’s a bit hard when you’re attempting to save for other things like travelling, not to mention having to fix a broken car. In some ways I feel like my life’s on hold a bit…but sacrifices must be made I guess.

Morning walk!

Being woken up by my mum on a Sunday morning at five to eight would normally get a bad response. Luckily this morning I was in a good mood! I had a good sleep, barely anything on my mind and good plans for the day. The walk lasted around about an hour, just enough time for the rain from the previous night that hung on the grass and sparkled in the sun to dry up.

Sometimes it’s the simple things in life that can make your day a bit brighter. Hope you all have a good morning, and if you do go for a walk…walk in quiet places!

“I think what you notice most when you haven’t been home in a while is how much the trees have grown around your memories.” – Mitch Albom, Tuesdays With Morrie.