Problems With Society

Sometimes, if you take a step back from the world, you can start to notice the flaws we have as humans. One of the main flaws I’m noticing at the minute is that people just don’t take the time to talk to each other. The most basic thing humans can do, and we don’t do it. We’ve become a world of meaningless words. The things that people actually say, don’t really matter deep down. And the words that are left unsaid mean more than anyone shall ever know. People can see someone everyday and never really know what’s going on in their lives, even to the point where they spend everyday sleeping in the same bed.

There’s been a lot of loss in the world around me lately, and it makes me wonder whether just taking the time to talk about things that actually matter…could have prevented these outcomes to some extent. Of course not everything can be resolved from opening up to someone, but you never know. Technology is a big thing in our day and age, and it kind of works as a way to fill the gaps between human encounters, to the point where it can block them from actually happening all together. To be quite honest, it’s shit and even that is slightly sugar-coating it.

I don’t really know where I’m going with this post. I guess what I’m really trying to do is get whoever’s reading this to take time out of their day to really talk to someone who they’re close to or they care about, and try to get past the bullshit of the facade that they are trying to hide behind. Although not everyone likes to admit it or complain about it, they all have something going on behind the scenes…or if your on the flip side of it, just open up to someone about how your really feeling…who knows, you might actually get a positive outcome…

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What am I doing?

Ok so you may or may not have noticed that I haven’t posted a blog for a while, and there is a reason for this. Maybe not a great reason…but a reason none the less. That reason is that I’m trying to figure out what I want from life right now.

Being a 22 year old with no relationship and no real career can be a bit confusing. I have never been career minded. I’d have loved to have been, as I’d know exactly what I wanted to do and how to achieve it…but no point in dwelling on it. I have thought about it briefly before but I’ve never had a real wake up call until the other day, when I found out I might be losing my job (through no fault of my own I may add).

It has come to the time where my boss has decided he needs to make a change in the business. That change being he needs a full time supervisor, however to accommodate that…he needs to lose someone else on full time hours i.e: me. Now this may seem simple, I’m losing my job…find another one. But It’s not as simple as that…he doesn’t know when this will happen, as he still needs to find the full time supervisor. So my days seem limited there… I just don’t know how much time I have. I’m in no way angry with my boss, because after all you have to do what you need to for the sake of your business but anyway this lead me to the following thoughts…

I am 22. No significant other. No flat. And soon to be no job. The world is my oyster as they say…so what to do? I could find another job near my home, one with good hours, a good wage…which would then lead to me probably getting a flat, and maybe eventually a partner. OR I could think of this as a escape. With no real ties here (other than my family of course) I could leave the country for a bit. Get a job abroad and travel the world a bit, like I had planned to. I mean if I’m going to do it eventually, why not now? What’s stopping me? Providing I can figure out a way to either keep my car or end my finance on it I could go.

It’s just a big decision to make. A lot of things to take into consideration, but plenty of potential to finally do something that I will love. So that’s where I am right now. Just an update I guess, and to empty my head for a bit…

🌟Christmas Apps🌟

As soon as the end of November approaches, I always without fail start to prepare my phone for December. Whether that’s just by changing the wallpapers, downloading a christmas countdown or even christmas games. So this is my lists of my top Christmas Apps this year for IOS.

  1. Advent 2015 – 25 Days of Christmas by appChocolate: This is just your basic Advent Calendar in App form. Everyday they offer you a new christmas game to download and enjoy.
  2. Christmas Countdown 2015 by UAB Target Works: A simple countdown with the added feature of a daily quote, plus you can also have it as a widget on your down bar so you don’t even have to go into the app to see the countdown.
  3. Christmas Wallpapers by Tick Tock Apps: This has a variety of christmas backgrounds to suit everyone’s needs during the festive season. Simple and brilliant.
  4. Pintrest by Pintrest, Inc: Now I know this isn’t just restricted to Christmas time, but it’s such a brilliant app for this time of year. If your struggling to know what to buy for that distant relative, or even just want to do some Christmas DIY or baking this app has it all. (It can even teach you how to make decorations).
  5. Manage Christmas by Simon North: This is by far my favourite app this year. You can make a list of who you need to buy for, the budget you want to keep, what you’ve bought, what you need. IT’s just brilliant, especially if your on a budget!
  6. Smashy Santa by Clive Smith: This is just a christmas game where you have to safely get santa across the roads, and streams without getting him killed. Fun but also annoying at the same time.
  7. Charades! Free by FatChicken Studios: We all know what charades is, this is just a digital version to play with all the family around christmas. Funny and no tidying away after the game is finished (or after you’ve had a few drinks).
  8. Netflix by Netflix, Inc: We all have a need for christmas films! This is just a great app that holds some of your festive favourites. For example; Home Alone, A Christmas Carol, The Santa Clause, and Jingle All The Way. Enjoy!
  9. Youtube by Google, Inc: This is just the same as pointers but in video form really. There’s DIY, christmas make up tutorials, gift ideas, and of course your favourite Youtuber’s. What more could you want?

There’s only one App missing from my collection and that’s the 12 Days of Christmas/Gifts App. This hasn’t been around for the last two years, but it was a great app with provided you with songs, films and apps to download on 12 days in December. I wish it was brought back. Anyway that’s just a few of my favourite’s, feel free to leave me a comment with your favourite apps for this time of the year :).

Ass kicking…

In contrast to yesterday’s post, this is about something I think its going well right now. That, is being single. I know I can complain about being single…but I am in fact enjoying it. More than I used to at least.

There was a quote I used to think about near the end of my last relationship,”You can’t love someone else, until you love yourself”. That’s not to say I didn’t love my ex, because I did. It just means I needed to learn to love myself more than I did. I felt lost back then, I still do now but I think being alone has helped in a way. I’ve had time to myself, time to develop and improve as a person. So that the next time I fall in love (If I do) I can really give everything to that person.

So yeah, I’m happy right now. Being single is kicking ass 🙂

Improvements…

There’s a lot of things I aim to improve on…and I could palm you off on a less personal one like my photography skills but I’m being honest and open this month. One of the things I’m focusing on improving right now is myself.  A blog I wrote this month was about three lessons I’d like to teach my children…but for me to teach anything to anyone else, I have to be a better/more together person myself.

The main improvements always seem to lead back to one thing – finding myself. They say you can’t be truly happy until your happy alone. So I’m trying that. I’m alone…but I’m still lost. I think the problem is that I’m too alone. I open myself up to new people in some ways, but I never fully submerge myself. In a way I think that would help me. In a previous blog I’ve also mentioned about how complete strangers can help you find the right path you belong on, after being pushed around by the wind first. I think that’s what I need to try. So this is the first step to submerging myself to change for the better, and making a few personal improvements….so here’s to submerging and hoping to not drown…

The struggle…

I’ve written about this before, but Depression is something I’ve struggled with in the past. It effects many people all over the world, and most of us keep it hidden due to the stigma that is attached to it. For me depression is a weird one because it comes back out of the blue with no real warning, and no definite way to send it away again. I think I’m always going to struggle with it in one way or another and that’s just something I’ve grown to accept. What helps though is having people around to help and talk to about it. I know for some people it’s hard to understand but it’s a topic that’s very confusing and unless you’ve experienced it or even seen it first hand…you can’t really compare. Like I said though its different for everyone, but if you know someone with depression the only thing you can do is be there for them…that’s all.

Eczema VS Sun-beds

So I’ve suffered from eczema since I was born. As I got older it seemed to of got more and more controllable, to the point where it was just seasonal and only really became visible in winter due to the sudden change of climate. However this year it doesn’t seem to be going away, and nothing seems to be helping clear it up.

Winter has come and gone and by March my skin would usually of gone back to its normal self. But for some reason this year it just won’t budge. I feel like I’ve tried everything. Different moistursers, steroid creams, bath ointments, and many more treatments. So like with any question I can’t answer, I took to the internet. There was suggestion, after suggestion but the one that caught my eye was to try using a sun-bed.

Now I know the risks of using a sun-bed…but due to my eczema mainly being due to the climate, and me feeling like I’m out of options I thought I should give it a go. So far I’ve only had 4 sessions, each of 6 minutes. But I honestly think it is beginning to help. My skin feels better and definitely looks better with the red patches disappearing, giving me a bit more self-confidence (because let’s be honest having people stare at you, and wonder why you look like a human leopard isn’t exactly a confidence booster). I mean I’m in no way getting a ‘great’ tan from this as I still look quite pale, but as long as my eczema is getting better I don’t mind.

Just as a side note this isn’t a long-term treatment at all and as soon as I feel happy that majority of it has cleared up, I will stop using the sun-beds. Anyway I’ll keep you updated, feel free to give me any feedback or even any suggestions if you or anyone you know struggles with eczema and what they use to clear it up.

 “People will stare . Make it worth their while” – Harry Winston.