A life without love…

There’s a phrase “A life without love, isn’t a life at all” and as silly as it may sound for a 24 year old to say, I firmly believe this right now. For someone who has been in love, and been completely infatuated with it, I can say that for me personally when your out of love and even as far away from the prospect of being in love as you can be…you get to the point where you can feel like you aren’t living. Not to sound too sad. Maybe a better way to put it, is not living life with 100%…does that make more sense?

I’m not saying I’m going to jump into any relationship just in the hope I find the thing we call love, I’m not that kind of person. If anything the truth is that I’m extremely reserved right now. It would be nice to open up to just one person again. To have one person that knows all your inner most thoughts. That’s not to say I’m closed off to everyone. To the people closest to me, they know a lot, maybe even some stuff that no one should know…but then if you looked deeper it could be seen as if palming them off with completely useless facts to throw them off the scent of what is really going on in my head or even life.

I’d like to think that I’m seen on the outside as a woman who is desired but can’t really be caught or tied down, like an unattainable woman of mystery. When in reality I am probably just seen as stuck up and rude or something else along them lines. The truth is I’m just waiting for something amazing to come along, or for the right one to work their way in…someone to take a chance on I guess (wow…sounding like a Disney princess right now). With all that said, I’m actually okay with not having that at the moment. The need for a relationship isn’t strong enough for me to just dive into the first thing I find. Not to mention realistically there’s other things I need to prioritise first.

This is just something I’ve been thinking about, and like I said not having someone to share your inner thoughts with sometimes sucks. I’ve even considered changing this blog into more of a diary when I don’t have much else to write about. After all what’s most important when writing a diary? Honesty. And that I can do.

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Bag Must Haves!

I’ve never been one of these girls that takes a bag everywhere with me, but nowadays it seems to be happening more and more. To the extent that I’m over prepared for any trip (even just to the shops). So I thought I’d do a ‘bag must haves’ blog…because why not. We may as well start off the year prepared, even if we don’t end it that way. Just as a little insight into women though, girls will always struggle when it comes to bags, mainly because of the size of them. Too small and we can’t fit anything in it, too big and you can’t find anything that’s in it. Anyway I’ll get on with it.

Item number 1: A purse. How would we spend money without this? Obviously we need this with us, shopping is what we do best…unless your trying your to avoid spending money at all costs…in which case leave it at home!

Item number 2: Keys. House keys, car keys, window keys (trust me they get everywhere). You need keys…unless you want your house robbed which you know some people might.

Item number 3: Hand cream. Because I have eczema I need to keep my skin moisturised and when I go out in the cold, my hands get the most damaged. The hand cream I have in my bag at the minute is the Soap and Glory hand food, which seems to be working.

Item number 4: A Diary. A lot of people don’t understand why I carry this around when I have a phone to put all my dates on…but anyone with a iPhone will understand how quickly the battery can go down. So why not go back to the olden ways and write it down instead?

Item number 5: Hand Sanitiser. Travelling, shopping, eating, there’s always germs,so why not.

Item number 6: Gum. Sometimes we need a bit of a refresher, so I always carry it around. Plus as soon as someone see’s it they want a piece. I normally have a pack in my car and people think its a free refreshment as if its a service I provide…safe to say it’s gone within a week.

Item number 7: A pen. You never know when you’ll need to write something down. Plus I mean I can’t carry a diary around without having a pen…that would just be silly.

Item number 8: Ivan the iPod. Everyone needs a bit of music in there life. Carrying that around allows you to escape when the world gets a bit much too. (Here’s a link for those who don’t know who Ivan is) Ivan the iPod Blog.

Item number 9: A thousand loyalty cards. We all collect theses, even for places we’ll just visit once in the hope we might return there someday and eventually have enough stamps for a free coffee.

Item number 10: Tampons. Come on, let’s all be adults here. Women bleed…better to have them and not need them. Even if they are a luxury item 😉

I’m sure over time it will just get more and more items in it…many useless. But that’s what women do 🙂