A life without love…

There’s a phrase “A life without love, isn’t a life at all” and as silly as it may sound for a 24 year old to say, I firmly believe this right now. For someone who has been in love, and been completely infatuated with it, I can say that for me personally when your out of love and even as far away from the prospect of being in love as you can be…you get to the point where you can feel like you aren’t living. Not to sound too sad. Maybe a better way to put it, is not living life with 100%…does that make more sense?

I’m not saying I’m going to jump into any relationship just in the hope I find the thing we call love, I’m not that kind of person. If anything the truth is that I’m extremely reserved right now. It would be nice to open up to just one person again. To have one person that knows all your inner most thoughts. That’s not to say I’m closed off to everyone. To the people closest to me, they know a lot, maybe even some stuff that no one should know…but then if you looked deeper it could be seen as if palming them off with completely useless facts to throw them off the scent of what is really going on in my head or even life.

I’d like to think that I’m seen on the outside as a woman who is desired but can’t really be caught or tied down, like an unattainable woman of mystery. When in reality I am probably just seen as stuck up and rude or something else along them lines. The truth is I’m just waiting for something amazing to come along, or for the right one to work their way in…someone to take a chance on I guess (wow…sounding like a Disney princess right now). With all that said, I’m actually okay with not having that at the moment. The need for a relationship isn’t strong enough for me to just dive into the first thing I find. Not to mention realistically there’s other things I need to prioritise first.

This is just something I’ve been thinking about, and like I said not having someone to share your inner thoughts with sometimes sucks. I’ve even considered changing this blog into more of a diary when I don’t have much else to write about. After all what’s most important when writing a diary? Honesty. And that I can do.

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Oblivious…

It seems to me that I’ve become a bit oblivious to the world around me lately. I walk around on auto pilot too much, which could be a result of being depressed over the years…or it could be because most of the time I’d prefer to be invisible and therefore I don’t take notice in the hope I don’t get noticed myself. As if over the years I’ve slowly  been backing myself out of society, excusing myself to be ignorant.

But by doing this it appears I’ve been also letting the wrong people in and shutting the best ones off to some extent. So this needs to stop. If anything this blog is basically a reminder to myself. To open your eyes! Don’t go through life without living, without knowing or taking notice. Have more interactions with people, even if it isn’t verbal. Because sometimes its the non verbal communications that can mean the most. Even show a spark between two people.

I feel like I have to remind myself a lot of this…but it’s the only way I know how to work it into my head. I think sometimes I just get lost in a sea of social media. I find myself scrolling through Facebook pointlessly for about an hour, before realising that times now gone. So I think I just need to take a step back from that a bit. Focus more on blogging and photography and just exploring and living really.

Ok. Good chat.

Liebster Award!

Nomination…

I was nominated by the amazing Daniella, from https://makeupyourmindx.wordpress.com. Thank you for the nomination! I’ve been reading blogs about this, but never thought I’d get nominated. You have a great blog, that’s worth everyone checking out! Also I apologise for not using the questions you provided I made a whoopsie and didn’t read past the questions you answered on your blog until after I wrote this (secret facepalm).

So what is the Liebster Award?

The Liebster Award is basically an award you get nominated for by a fellow blogger, if you have under 200 followers. You then answer 11 questions provided by that blogger, and then nominate 5-11 other bloggers providing them with another 11 questions of your choice. From my understanding the aim is to spread the word about bloggers you follow, and suggest them to other people. Overall creating a type of promotion for a number of bloggers to allow them to get more followers, or to just get their writing noticed more. I personally think this is a great way to build up a community and whoever created it is a genius in the blogosphere.

My Questions

1. Why did you start blogging? I started blogging for a number of reasons. Firstly I’ve always liked writing and sharing random thoughts, and through blogging you can also generate good feedback in relation to these thoughts. Secondly I finished University, and through university you do a lot of essays, so once that I finished I had a bit of a gap in my life (plus i think one of the best noises in the world is the sound of a keyboard  being used). Finally I have an aspiration to start a YouTube channel and I think in some ways this could be a good platform to launch that a bit.

2. What is your favourite beauty product? My favourite at the moment is the CC Cream by ‘GOSH’ in 02 Ivory, I just think it makes my face feel so soft and look amazing! Especially when my eczema gets bad, it really helps the red patches appear ‘normal’.

3. Do you have any siblings? Yes I have an older sister called Charlotte who is 25, and she is amazing!

4. Most embarrassing moment of your life? I have too many to list, I think overall I am just a very clumsy person and in some ways a bit socially awkward which of course does me no favours.

5. What are three words you would use to describe yourself? Small, observant and polite.

6. Do you have any pets? I personally have a cat, and two gerbils. However the total number of animals at my house including those 3 is 7 (I counted the tropical fish as 1 pet).

7. What is your favorite season and why? Summer. The days seem long. The nights seem long. There’s nicer clothing to be worn. Overall more opportunities for different activities.

8. Favorite article of clothing? I don’t really have a favourite. You can’t go wrong with checked shirt during the day, and a nice chiffon dress at night (if you are going somewhere).

9. What is a hobby of yours? Taking pictures. I wouldn’t class myself as a photographer because I don’t think I’m anywhere near as skilled as I should be, but it is something I really enjoy. Take a look at my Instagram 😉

10. Name one thing you can’t live without? Air? (I know I’m SO funny!)

11. Favorite food? Chicken, pizza, ice cream, corn on the cob, cake, pulled pork, chips, chilli…. My name is Natalie…and I’m a foodaholic

Questions to my nominees:

  1. Why did you start a blog?
  2. Do you have any siblings?
  3. What’s your one main goal in life?
  4. Do you have any pets?
  5. What are your hobbies?
  6. If you could travel anywhere where would it be and why?
  7. Best beauty product?
  8. What is your favorite film?
  9. If you could invite anyone in the world (dead or alive) to dinner who would it be and why?
  10. What 3 things must you carry in your bag at all times?
  11. What is your favourite quote?